Poetic Justice

This week, I rediscovered my adoration for John Keats.

After posting the poem “Oh Blush Not So!” on here, I began to remember how ingenious he was. So, I hie-d me up to Borders with the companionship of darling Nichole, and I found the Penguin Classics complete poetry of John Keats. I may have hyperventilated and grasped the window for support just a little. Maybe a little more than a little, but it was far shy of a lot.

The poetry section at Borders is sporadically restocked. Rarely do you find exactly what you are looking for. Since I happened across the complete works of John Keats, I took it as a sign and purchased it immediately. (Don’t judge; I had a coupon to reduce it from $16 to $11.75. How could I refuse?)

Here’s where the story takes an unexpected turn that caused Nichole to shoot me wary and worried glances all day.

Rather than leaving the book in the safety of the car while we finished our errands, I brought it with me. I couldn’t keep my hands off of it. I kept it in my arms all day. I opened it at random and read some of my old favorites as well as some I had never read before. I toyed with Keats for hours, letting him elate and depress me, confide in and rebuff me, fascinate and bore me. I’ve creased Keats’ spine already, and those of you who have seen my library know I take special care to preserve the original condition of my books.

This frenzied obsession with the sexy, black-covered volume made me reminisce as t how my deep passion for poetry developed.

I was never a literary child. While I enjoyed books, I didn’t feel driven to read them. That’s what the movie was for, right? (Oh, irony.) In fact, I hated reading. When we first moved to the U.S., I tested several grades above level, so I got lazy. I’ve always been easily seduced by the easy life. I only began to read voraciously in 7th grade, and I it wasn’t until 9th grade that I began an acquaintance with poetry.

I mean, I used to see poetry everyday in Mr. Williams’ class, say hi, listen to it for a minute or two, then forget about it. Occasionally, my eyes drifted across the room to it, waiting in the corner, but I looked away before anyone could notice. We weren’t close. We didn’t move in the same circles. Sure, I was vaguely interested (as I believe it was in me), but we never forged a major connection. Until Coleridge.

Ah, Samuel! I discovered Coleridge in 10th grade. “Kubla Khan” changed my life. It pulled me out of class and sent me through a whirling spiral of space/time, and I found that, once there, I never wanted to come home. No thanks, Dorothy; keep your ruby red slippers. Xanadu kicks Oz’s ass anyway.

Why my abrupt fixation with poetry?

I have always fought an internal battle between logic and emotion. My emotions are hasty and so eager; they jump to react to everything around me, reigning craziness down of the innocents nearby. My logic, however, is learned, carefully crafted, and precise. It lets my emotion leap . . . and then smacks it with a board on the head. Within this discord lies my answer: Poetry allows my extremes to work in cooperation rather than competition.

My emotions are fed by the passion and the beauty of the poet’s apparition while my logic is undulated with form, allusions, pieces of a puzzle that must be assembled quickly before the magic is gone. Poetry can be intellectual, zealous, structured, wild, beautiful, dour, uplifting, disheartening, and everything buried in between.

Why settle for something simple when I can feast on something so sustaining?

Here endeth the rant.

Cotton Candy

As I stumbled blearily into work this morning before the sun peeked over the shadowed mountains, I was greeted with the sight of Rutter (my mentor and now boss) furiously decorating his whiteboard with his unseemly scrawl. (Unseemly considering I could hardly see my hand properly, let alone attempt to decipher his handwriting.) I managed to make out the word "love," and coupling it with my own memories of taking his class in high school, I yawned, "Creative Writing?"

"Of course!" he chimed.

How could he be so cheery at 7 a.m.?!

He didn't stop there, though. "Fairytale love is a pipe dream, Rosemary! Here," he added, thrusting a xeroxed paper at me, "read this aloud to me. I need to ruminate."

I glanced down, and my resentment at having to help without a drop of caffeine in my body melted away. John Donne's glorious words shone up at me, reassuring me that there was indeed something worth living for today. I proceeded to read "The Flea" out loud to Rutter, as he wrote his notes on Disney Princess movies on the board.

I finished with the glorious and somewhat tawdry line, "Just so much honour, when thou yield'st to me,/Will waste, as this flea's death took life from thee."

He squinted at my slouching form. "Too risque for high school?"

Probably. "Not at all."

"It's a metaphorical union. An intellectual consummation. They're in love, Rosemary."

"I know, Rutter. I think it's perfectly acceptable. Besides, even if there is a sexual undertone--not that I'm implying there is!--these are your advanced students. They should be able to discuss complex issues maturely and intellectually." Besides, I really want to see their faces flush at the line, "This flea is you and I, and this/Our marriage bed, and marriage temple is."

Now, that's a love poem. All of the real men died 100 years ago, and with them went the civilized passion that made romances great, poetry lasting, declarations forceful, men manly, and women womanly. Real men, that made women want to be women instead of asserting themselves to the point of arrogance and contempt simply to prove that someone could still be strong.

This Disney trash that relies on physical attraction and sex to build a lifetime romance is only encouraging people to seek a sweeping and picture perfect romance. But it's not real. There's no emotion, no passion, no meat. Why be content with words when you can have feeling?

Compare.

My Angel

My sweet beautiful angel.
Sent to me from above.
I am so grateful to have found you,
and I give you all my love.

You must have come from heaven,
because you have pretty little angel eyes.
When you gaze at me with them,
my heart begins to fly.

Your sweet angelic voice,
continuously rings in my ears.
With you by my side,
there is nothing I fear.

Whenever we are together,
You shine with a heavenly glow.
Your beautiful angel face,
raises me up from feeling low.

Yes, heaven is missing an angel,
because you are here with me.
You're my sweet, beautiful angel,
and I'll love you for eternity!

- David Mendez-Yapkowitz (2003)

Sweet, in the way that your fifth helping of cotton candy is sweet.


Oh Blush Not So!

O blush not so! O blush not so!
Or I shall think you knowing;
And if you smile the blushing while,
Then maidenheads are going.

There's a blush for want, and a blush for shan't,
And a blush for having done it;
There's a blush for thought, and a blush for nought,
And a blush for just begun it.

O sigh not so! O sigh not so!
For it sounds of Eve's sweet pippin;
By these loosen'd lips you have tasted the pips
And fought in an amorous nipping.

Will you play once more at nice-cut-core,
For it only will last our youth out,
And we have the prime of the kissing time,
We have not one sweet tooth out.

There's a sigh for aye, and a sigh for nay,
And a sigh for "I can't bear it!"
O what can be done, shall we stay or run?
O cut the sweet apple and share it!

-John Keats

Now, that's a poem that delves into the complicated emotion that is love. That's a five-course meal.

No contest.

So, Disney movies be damned! Rather than pandering to the base instincts and the ideals of happily ever after, show us something real. Or if not real, something not so twisted.